Trip - Lorong Terigu Revisit

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Honestly, the haze condition in Singapore was bad, at an unhealthy range. I wanted to go for a hike, which made me think twice... In fact, I wouldn't think twice; I would go for a hike because not many people would be hiking in such conditions!

Check up the condition. It was early morning, as if it was about to rain.

But where should I go for a hike? I want to visit Mandai Forest... However, there was a place I had thought of a long time ago, but I cannot recall it.

Blog - October Overview

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Looking back at my past, I realise how much of my struggles were shaped by what I didn’t receive when I was younger. I grew up without much affirmation from my parents or adults around me, and over time, I found myself silently craving it. That gap has followed me into adulthood, where I sometimes look to others to validate my efforts or worth. It isn’t about attention or recognition; it’s about a part of me that never had the chance to feel acknowledged.

What I’ve realised is that it’s not just about affirmation itself. It’s about the kind of affirmation that reaches me.

I don’t need big, fancy words or people showering me with compliments. In fact, those things often feel cheap and empty to me. I don’t need to be in the spotlight or have the loudest applause; I never belonged on that stage. What I long for is sincerity. A smile that says, “I see what you did,” or someone describing in their own words that they understand what I’ve gone through—that means everything to me. It makes me feel that my effort and experience are not being overlooked. I don’t need more than that. A genuine response is all that's needed.

Trip - Thomson Nature Park Again

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I had intended to visit the old uncle's banyan tree but I chose to meet an old friend who was available that morning instead. He used to volunteer at the park, bringing people around, and he had previously visited Thomson Nature Park.

So why not meet him and give me a private tour of Thomson Nature Park?

Thomson Nature Park is not new to me or any of my readers (if any); however, it is a relatively new park that has a special place in my heart; and, according to my own hiking measurement score, it is a Level 2A. You can check out my Enter before it started, First Opening and Revisit in 2020 posts.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #107

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Running against my thoughts. Jogging is often seen as a way to clear the mind, but for me, it’s more than that. It’s a quiet battle between my thoughts and my feet, between what I feel and what I know. Every step I take is not just about fitness but about pushing through the emotions that weigh me down. Recently, I realized that jogging, which was supposed to be my escape, also became a reminder of my struggles with self-image and societal expectations.

It all started when a well-meaning friend shared images of fitness influencers with sculpted bodies, captioned with words about dedication, hard work, and achieving one’s dream physique.

On the surface, these messages were meant to inspire, but for me, they became a trigger. Instead of motivation, they reminded me of what I lacked. I know I should only compare myself to my past self, not others, but it’s hard when society worships a specific kind of "ideal."

Personal - Suits for the Theme #106

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These were monsoon days, and I was not motivated to go for a jog because the ground was wet or raining... Plus, there were long unfinished posts in December and a heavy workload in January... I hoped to regain my jogging motivation...

I tried to reflect on why I had lost motivation. I know that workload, weather, and unfinished posts all impact me, but I believe it is primarily because I have gained weight. Sigh.

Here's a collection of me in trisuits and jogging, expressing my inability to break free from the fat web... I finished this theme early last year, and now I am looking at my fat stomach... I just started to hate myself...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #105

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Lately, the frequent evening rain coupled with my busy schedule has left me with little opportunity to go for a jog. Honestly, it’s been quite upsetting. I truly miss my hiking and cycling sessions—those moments of freedom and connection with the outdoors...

Looking at myself now, I can’t help but feel a bit down. I’ve put on some weight, and it’s frustrating. But amidst this wave of emotion, I remind myself that feeling this way is natural, and more importantly, that I have the power to make a change.

Even when life gets hectic, I realize how vital it is to carve out time for myself. Whether it’s a short workout, a stretch, or simply stepping outside for a breath of fresh air during a break in the rain, every small effort counts. Motivation is something we must hold close to—it’s not always easy, but it’s so valuable for our well-being...

Blog - November Overview

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November is already one of my busiest seasons, and I will not be able to explore much, but I will try. I update my overview posts more regularly or daily than my long posts.

I guess blogging is a way of healing for me.

This is the best way to treat this blog as my personal cyberspace where I can reflect on random stupid things from time to time.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #104

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Balancing the feeling of genuinely receiving compliments while wrestling with that underlying sense of unworthiness or inferiority can be tough, and I know that it's a real challenge. Many people feel this—especially those who want to contribute positively to the world but feel they aren’t quite measuring up. That is why I feel receiving compliments is hard to accept—they seem bigger than I deserve. I don’t have the look, wealth, or abilities that many admire, and deep down, I worry about coming up short. But I’m trying to change my mindset.

Learning to Accept Compliments, One Step at a Time

Step 1: I’m starting by simply saying “thank you” without overthinking it. It's okay if I don’t see myself the way others do—small steps matter. Step 2: Blogging is a positive outlet for me; writing about these feelings helps me uncover the good others might already see. Step 3: I’m learning to agree, even if only a little, with the compliments I get. I may not be perfect, but I’m trying to grow, and maybe that’s enough for now.

Blog - October Overview

Hi Blog,

It's already October! I always have trouble pronouncing "August" as "October" because they start with the same vowel. I'm wondering if it's due to my learning disability. Most people will likely need help understanding the challenge and will do their best to teach me how to recognize and read it correctly.

But they overlooked one detail: I am fine with reading written material; it may be slow, but it is not a problem. The main issue is speech; I need to mentally spell the word to say it correctly or have it corrected by someone else. I guess dyslexia got in the way.

Oh well... I was created to tick people off as if it were a simple task, but I could not do it. When everyone is dealing with their issues with the majority of responses, I am simply stupid to be caught up in it, unaware of the difficulties and concerns I am experiencing.

Trip - Botanic Gardens Tyersall Gallop Extension

Good Morning Blog,

BP had been asking me to accompany him to the Botanic Garden's new zone for months because his girlfriend would be unable to explore with him. So I agreed to go because I had promised him.

I decided not to write a long post due to the unfinished posts on the Korean trip. But this is a new place, so I should write a long one.

Well, it is already stacked, so having one more makes no difference, right? Today's trip was a general and less detailed one; you should explore it yourself 😉

Personal - Suits for the Theme #103

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Looking back on my silly stupid completed trisuit theme post with a heavy heart... Yes, the accomplishment and effort should not be overlooked, but unfortunately... I fell back into the spiral again...

Perhaps it is simply a disappointment with myself... Not to the hate level, but rather blamed myself.

Everyone has accomplished so much, such as having a relationship, feeling wanted and appreciated, taking on a family role, and having a well-paying job, while I continue to sit outside my house, gazing at the small portion of the blue sky which I enjoy...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #102

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For the past few years, I’ve been on a journey to stay fit while capturing moments of wearing different trisuits in the same spot. This one is my #102 trisuit post, it still amazes me how what started as a small gesture has now become a motivating factor in my life. Looking back at my #1 in March 2018, I realize that it had been six years already!

Yeah, it might seem a little strange, but each photo serves as a reminder that I'm taking care of myself - whether I'm going for a run or just keeping track of my progress.

It's my way of acknowledging my dedication and reminding myself that even the smallest actions, such as getting ready for a run in my trisuit, can have a big impact.

Hiking - Revisit Keppel

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Given that I am attending Gardeners Day Out at HortPark and having lunch at Funan, I will take advantage of the pleasant weather and explore with my new camera!

Err... This weather is a bit moody, but I'm sticking to my decision!!

I plan to perform a camera test to evaluate its performance against my previous model. Moreover, I intend to introduce my new camera into my regular explorations. Today's hike will serve as an opportunity similar to an exploration I undertook in October 2023.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #101

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#101 trisuit theme - just a reminder for myself that I moved on.

Apart from the conclusion of my unfruitful romantic saga, the next chapter that weighs on my mind is friendship.

I haven't identified a clear pattern yet, but what I do know is that people come and go. Especially when many initially seem sincere and eager to kindle a friendship. However, once they received the confirmation or acknowledgement, their demeanour changed and became distant, even though I made an effort to be open and approachable...

Blog - July Overview

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Since May, I've been trying to find the positive force within me, but I haven't succeeded. I never feel good enough to wield the lightsaber. In June, I aimed to focus on recognizing the positive things I've been doing, but I needed clarification.

July always reminds me that I am getting old, as I often recall a quote from the Analects of Confucius. “吾十有五而志于学，三十而立，四十而不惑，五十而知天命，六十而耳顺，七十而从心所欲，不逾矩。” Online Translation: "At fifteen, I was focused on learning. At thirty, I stood firm. At forty, I had no doubts. At fifty, I knew the decrees of heaven. At sixty, my ear was tuned to the truth. At seventy, I could follow my heart’s desires, without transgressions.

四十而不惑, At forty, I had no doubts; I must say, I am moving in that direction, especially self-doubt. Even though I fell down, I must say I picked myself up quickly. Unlike when I was 30+, I would be stuck for a long time. I hope I can get better and wiser as time goes on.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #100

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Can you believe it!? It is my 100th Trisuit theme anniversary! 😂 Are you excited and amazed at how I feel?

Perhaps you might not understand... It is just about an ugly me's collective attempt to jog and plan my jogging route.

Since Feb 2015 when I decided to go for first jogging (post link) or search all my #jogging posts, my physique is still untoned since then, but I'm not waving the white flag and adding on with a #trisuitsuit theme (page link) in 2018 to motivate myself.

Hiking - Serapong Unknown Ruins

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Recently, I've observed a team of urban explorers venturing into lesser-known areas in Serapong. Two of them, including the Chasing Peaks blogger, disclosed the location 📍 to me.

I thought to myself that I would try it on my own.

However, I need more confidence to proceed alone, as my intuition advises against it. Luckily, some fellow explorers mentioned they were heading there, so I wanted to tag along to be safe.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #99

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Wow! This is the 99th entry for my trisuit theme! Can you believe that!? Looking back at my collection of trisuit themes (link) what I had achieved... I should not deny or discredit myself for the effort I had put in for years.

This elevator has been a constant companion, motivating me during workouts and work.

I found a sense of security and authenticity within the lift; similar to my blog.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #98

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I'm convinced that viney spot from my trisuit theme #97 has a magnetic pull on me; I can't escape its allure!

Like this one was at different location but was gone too.

I'm wondering what type of plant this is—it doesn't quite look like other vines.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #97

Hi Blog,

Still remembered that I mentioned that I missed the vine on 15th May of May overview post? It was chopped off... There are many reasons why I missed it...

One main reason was because the vines were evenly distributed like a curtain and not much leaves litter on the ground which used to hide small critters.

I always visit this spot whenever I jogged, and now it is gone. I decided to publish this as one of my trisuit themes to memorialize this place.