Blog - February Overview

Hi Blog,

Chinese New Year has always felt different from the Western New Year. It carries less urgency and more reflection — a pause to look at what has stayed, what has faded, and what quietly follows us into the next cycle of life.

I had to reflect on what I want to do in life.

Now, close to 50, I no longer wait for dramatic changes in my relationship status. Looking back at my 30s and where I am today, I can’t tell whether I truly outgrew that longing or whether I numbed myself for so long that it felt like growth. Perhaps it doesn’t matter anymore. What matters is that I’ve learned to accept it. Instead of letting these unfulfilled hopes become stones that slow me down or injure me, I choose to turn them into stepping stones — a way to cross the river towards the place I’m meant to reach.

1st Feb 2026 - I can't believe I spent two hours tidying my corner garden. What I did was repot every Nepenthes into a bigger pot and cut down all the vines because I am confident that the main plants will continue to grow with new shoots. I hope they continue to grow with me, since I won't be getting any more. (I hope I can keep my promise.)

2nd Feb 2026 - I woke up early while it was still dark and returned home late; the moon appeared serene and comforting, as if reassuring me that everything would be fine.

3rd Feb 2026 - I returned home late last night, around 2 a.m., and did not get sufficient rest for the following morning's work, which left me feeling somewhat fatigued. After work, I considered going for a brief jog but opted to sleep early instead.

4th Feb 2026 - Spiderman Costume from Unibuyplus
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5th Feb 2026 - My mother and brother went into madness again, buying nearly $1,000 worth of beverages from various places. This time, they filled four trolleys with goods. The staff was excited and asked for a photo, but my mother and brother retreated to hide while I was pushed to the front to be their cover boy.

6th Feb 2026 - Friday again! I really missed swimming, but honestly, I also missed jogging, cycling, and hiking. I’m not sure why, but I’ve somehow lost my motivation. I hope I can reignite that spark soon. During today’s swim, I ran into HS, who was inspired to swim regularly to regain his health. He reminded me that I had once motivated him to swim, which gave me the affirmation that I should start motivating myself instead of losing myself.

7th Feb 2026 - Bus Over The Border Together
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This year, my wish is simple. I hope to become something quiet but steady — a lighthouse to guide others, an air purifier for what I consume both externally and internally, or a plant like the 四君子, standing upright in its own season. My resolution is not to become wealthier, fitter, or more impressive, but to let calm replace numbness, and clarity replace illusion. If I can walk into this new cycle with a steadier heart, that will be enough.

Jeff

Personal - Bus Over The Border Together

Hi Blog,

(Drafting, now preparing my blog post)

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Product - Spiderman Costume from Unibuyplus

Hi Blog,

This is a kind of late post that I took a few weeks to draft. Based on the title, yes, I went and bought another Spider-Man suit. This one will be my last because of the high-quality fabric. I wish I could afford the best Spider-Man suit, which costs around $1k, but so far I haven't had a chance to wear it...

Oh well, I bumped into this website, Unibuyplus, and it has an affordable Spiderman Suit. It is not customisable, so I have to risk it. Based on my height, I should go for S, but I am too big for S, so M will be the size to go for.

Anyway, money has been spent, and goods have arrived. Let's see how the suit looks.

Blog - January Overview

Hi Blog,

As the new year arrives, fewer people ask me about my New Year resolution these days. Maybe people are busy, or maybe they already assume I don’t have one. The truth is, I do have an ultimate aim in life — but I’ve learned that it’s better to stay grounded and realistic than to dress it up into something ambitious-sounding but hollow.

Not every beginning needs noise; some begin with stillness.

When I was younger, like many others — especially when single — my resolutions sounded familiar: eat healthier, work out more, achieve more, move forward faster. Couples seemed different; they had shared motivation and visible milestones ahead of them. As for me, a plain old single guy, my life has been shaped more by responsibility than by ambition — taking care of my mother and siblings, and filling my days with what many might call “boring” activities: hiking, swimming, jogging, blogging, gardening, volunteering, religious work, even cosplaying. These choices don’t always fit the image of someone who looks ready to devote everything to building a conventional family, and over time, they quietly shaped both how others see me and how I see myself.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #118

Hi Blog,

Today, I find myself standing in a very different place from where I used to be. I feel less urge to constantly check how others might read me based on what I wear. Over time, I’ve learned that chasing the “right” image only pulls me further away from myself.

I can’t stop labels, but I don’t have to live by them.

Yes, people will always assume. Some will misinterpret, some will project, and some will judge without knowing the story behind a choice. I’ve come to accept that this is just part of life. I don’t have to explain myself anymore, nor do I need approval to enjoy what I like. Whether it’s fitted clothes, the colour white, or something that feels a little uncommon, I wear them because they make me feel comfortable and aligned — not because I’m trying to prove anything.