Hi Blog,
Recently, I came across a story about someone who felt insecure about her looks. She believed that changing her appearance would finally make her feel accepted — maybe even loved. As I read through it, I realised… it didn’t feel unfamiliar. In some ways, it echoed thoughts I once carried within myself.
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| What if the problem was never how we looked… but how we learned to value ourselves? And it is something I always remind myself. |
There was a line of thought that stayed with me — even if we could change our appearance, would it ever be enough? There will always be someone prettier, someone more charming, someone who seems to have what we don’t. And if we keep chasing that, the finish line will only keep moving further away.
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| 1st Jun 2026 (part 1) - Today, I wanted to visit Kay Seng bunker, as it has been a while since I last visited. I would like to see its current state, but somehow Miss Sky had other plans. I could have continued exploring there, and I wouldn't mind getting wet; however, I don't like it when I cannot take any photos, so it's time to go back... |
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| 1st Jun 2026 (part 2) - Since I cannot hike for the day, I will spend some time taking photos of my extra bromeliads during my JB bromeliad collection trip. Love the colour and the flower pattern! |
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| 2nd Jun 2026 - In 2024 (costume and cosplaying), I got myself a costume that I have loved since I was young, to become a member of GUTS Force in Ultraman Tiga, to fight monsters. I want a spare costume to replace my 2024 costume in case it wears out. I also realised that fewer cosplaying websites carry this costume anymore, so I decided to buy one from Taobao and chose the higher-priced option because the advertised image shows a certain high quality of the costume. Initially concerned about its authenticity, upon receiving and inspecting the parcel, I found the costume to exhibit exceptional premium quality. Its texture and overall quality surpass my previous purchase. I also got myself a cap so that I won't have to wear a helmet and serve as an alternative while cosplaying. |
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| 3rd Jun 2026 - Today, we participated in a Kalimba-making workshop, and I crafted one myself (Honestly, it is not easy to pull those metal pieces in.) rather than purchasing a professionally made instrument. Haha. Because I don't know how to play anything with it and won't know how to tune it (if anyone can help me), for now, it will become a wooden piece that makes noises. |
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| 4th Jun 2026 (part 1) - Today was a relaxed day when we went outside our workplace to learn new things. The morning session wasn't anything I didn't already know, but I unlearned and relearned, which I found useful for better understanding the content. Then, in the afternoon, we went for indoor farming - I believe it will be the future of Singapore farming and possibly for planetary travel. |
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| 4th Jun 2026 (part 2) - Wah, I could have gone back early yesterday, but instead of taking the opportunity to go for an early jog, I chose to rest. I can't help but feel disappointed in myself for being so lazy. However, I know I need to rest because I won’t have the chance to do so in the next few days. |
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| 6th Jun 2026 (part 1) - Today, I went down to ScapeSG to help out with an event, and it was great to meet and make some new friends along the way. Although it was a simple event, it required considerable planning and hard work to organise. Thank you for the opportunity for a professional photo shoot in my costume! The photographer will take two weeks to process the images, and I will share them once I receive them. Today, I also got to try on one of the expensive masks—the Demon Slayer Inosuke's wild boar mask! I felt like I was in beast mode! It’s a shame I don’t have the right physique to cosplay as that character. A big thank you to @9kekz for letting me try on the mask! After the event, I couldn't believe I simply wore my costume and took public transport home. Honestly, no one seemed to care! I feel like a bit of a weirdo in a costume that not many people recognise, but I just need to be comfortable with myself. |
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| 6th Jun 2026 (part 2) - Thank you, M, for meeting me for dinner at Elemen. I appreciate you treating me, even though I won't be trying the special meal option. I really enjoyed our conversation, and I hope your future plans work out well! |
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| 8th Jun 2026 - I am so excited to photograph my newly purchased bromeliad during my hike. I chose this hot pink bromeliad to add some colour to my garden. I think I have enough of them now, so it’s time to stop and focus on taking care of them. |
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| 11th Jun 2026 - Yes! My first swim in June 2026! Why does it matter? It does not matter, but at least I finally got a chance to swim! The best part is that I decided to test my luck by walking to the pool, and an empty pool was waiting for me. Feeling happy! However. I could not be happy too long as families started to enter... |
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| 13th Jun 2026 - Today was a busy day, but I managed to find some time to visit the Garden Day Out on the west side. As I wandered through the market, I came across a beautifully weathered log that caught my eye. Inspired by its charm, I decided to transform it into a stunning display for air plants. I carefully arranged the delicate air plants on the log, envisioning a lush arrangement that would flourish for years to come. The combination of the rustic wood and vibrant greenery created a delightful centrepiece that I hope will thrive forever. |
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| 14th Jun 2026 - SJI International School hosted its annual ASSISI Fun Day, and the PFACSG was there to support them. This was my first time helping out at the event. The school is quite large and well-equipped, featuring air-conditioned halls, a canteen, and various classrooms. It was great to reconnect with other cosplayers and strengthen those friendships. I even tried on a Superman cape and became “Super Captain”! However, I dropped to my knee because I realised I hadn't rehearsed how to pose with my legs, and I posed incorrectly. I’m determined to do better next time! |
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15~18th Jun 2026 - My Disney Adventure Cruise Experience
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| 19th Jun 2026 - Today, I had the opportunity to work from home, which I’m very grateful to my boss for arranging after my leave. I took advantage of this time by going for an early jog, and I visited Da afterwards. It was refreshing, especially since it had been a while since my last jog. I realised, however, after indulging during the cruise, that today's jog won't make up for the amount of food I ate. |
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| 18th Jun 2026 - Since I returned to Singapore early, I decided to visit my sister’s stall to offer some help and unexpectedly ran into a parent from my old school! It has been over ten years since we last met. I was glad to see that LL still recognised me. |
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| 20th Jun 2026 - After returning from the cruise, we successfully executed the next planned program that had been in the works for the past two months. I hope the teens had a great time hanging out with both us and each other. It has taken years of effort to help them bond, and it is challenging since they rarely communicate or meet up daily. |
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| 21st Jun 2026 - Among all the characters I would like to be, many assume it would be Captain America. However, I have wanted to cosplay as Ultraman Tiga GUTS Daigo Madoka for over 20 years, since 1998. I want to portray him because his character in the series resonates strongly with me. He is an ordinary, sincere, compassionate, and mature team player, unlike many of the more hot-blooded and aggressive protagonists that came after him. Daigo has to grapple with the immense weight and responsibility of his power, and I find it inspiring to watch him navigate what it means to be a guardian while still remaining a regular guy. Most importantly, he often fights alongside his team, allowing his teammates to shine and develop their own characters and roles. Unfortunately, I haven't dared to cosplay as him, and it's difficult to find a site to purchase that costume. However, after cosplaying as Captain America for a while, I gained the confidence to seek out such an old costume, even if no one recognises it. Ultimately, it doesn't matter to me anymore. |
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| 22nd Jun 2026 - It’s our regular catch-up day with C and G. I'm sad to learn that C will be leaving soon, but I hope he finds a newer and better opportunity next year. I'll treat everyone today. |
That was when something quietly shifted in me. Maybe this isn’t a race I was meant to win. Maybe the exhaustion I felt all these years didn’t come from lacking something — but from chasing something that was never meant to define me in the first place. And slowly, I began to understand… acceptance is not about giving up, but about seeing myself more truthfully.
Jeff
