Blog - April Overview

Hi Blog,

There was a time when I looked into the mirror, not to see myself, but to measure what I lacked. Height, appearance, presence — somehow, I always felt I fell short. It wasn’t something people said all the time directly, but it was there… in the silence, in comparisons, in the way attention seemed to flow more easily to others.

Maybe it wasn’t the mirror that was harsh… but the way I learned to look at myself.

Growing up, it felt like there was an invisible standard everyone had to meet. The media, the people around me, even casual conversations — they all quietly shaped this idea of what it meant to be “good-looking enough.” And without realising it, I started to believe that being seen, liked, or even loved… had something to do with how I wished to meet that standard.

1st Apr 2026 - I will change my blog's name to OnlyJeff so I can post all my XXX content and charge my visitors cash! Wahahahahahahahhaha! Nah, April Fool's Day. I like my original name for my blog; I don't want to associate with such a naming convention, and I don't have XXX-related content other than being an eyesore. Cash? Nah, at least I have people who really care and are inspired, so I am humbled by it.

2nd Apr 2026 - My blog, especially my overview, has almost become my swimming posts... Where are my jogging and cycling posts? I want to post my plant-related stuff too, but I have dedicated that to my thread app. Anyway, let's talk about today. Today I decided to go for a quick swim before I fly, and I'm glad I did.

3rd ~ 6th Apr 2026 - Short Getaway to Korea
(Drafting)

Looking back now, I realise it wasn’t just about appearance. It was about worth. Somewhere along the way, I tied how I looked to how much I deserved — attention, affection, even a place among others. And that belief stayed quietly within me for years, shaping how I saw myself in ways I didn’t fully understand back then. Not easy, but I know I am heading towards there.

Jeff

Trip - Short Getaway to Korea

Hi Blog,

(drafting so now only pictures) As you know, travelling with a group of friends is one of my wishes, and that also includes travelling with colleagues. Why so? Because, personally, I think being able to travel together is an art; it shows the willingness to bond and to know one another.

But sometimes, it has an issue. Is there anyone who wants to do so, especially with me? Haha. When it happens, it is a blessing for me.

But there is a risk when travelling together; it can break the relationship or leave scars during or after the trip. Personally, I take every moment of travelling to get to know a person and determine whether that person is a good travel partner.

Anyway, I will be going to spend four days on a four-day getaway in Korea with my colleagues! I won't divide my four-day trip into four posts and will keep it all in one.

Blog - March Overview

Dear Chat,

There was a season in my life where affirmation felt necessary. I realised I often longed to be seen, acknowledged, and told that I was doing well. At the same time, I also told myself I shouldn’t need it — that I should be strong enough to validate myself. Through these reflections, I began to see that this wasn’t a weakness, but a pattern shaped by my past.

What I discovered: Affirmation is not the problem. Dependence on it is.

I learned that it is human to appreciate encouragement. But I also learned that my worth cannot fluctuate based on whether someone notices me. I can affirm myself. I can recognise my own effort. I can quietly acknowledge my own growth.