Blog - July Overview

Hi Blog,

July always makes me reflect more deeply—maybe because it's my birthday month. Another year older, and I wonder, have I grown? Not just in age, but in how I carry myself through life? Birthdays used to feel like quiet reminders of my limits, but now I’m starting to see them as gentle invitations to check in with myself.

Looking back, I realise that self-growth doesn’t always look like big achievements. Sometimes, it’s simply learning to be softer with myself.

I’ve spent years criticising my own actions, trying to meet some imagined standard. But this year, I hope and want to shift from self-blame to self-trust—to honour how far I’ve come, even if it’s invisible to others. This birthday, I won’t make loud promises or resolutions. I’ll just choose to be present. Growth is not about being perfect; it’s about being patient. And if I can offer that patience to myself, maybe that’s the real gift of turning a year older.

Blog - June Overview

Hi Blog,

This June began unexpectedly: my left ear became muffled for more than a week. At first, I thought it would go away, but it persisted until I saw a doctor. He explained that it was earwax impaction. I started the treatment and gradually adjusted to being half-deaf. As strange as it sounds, the silence in one ear forced me to listen more deeply to myself.

It reminded me of how I sometimes respond to the advice of others—half-listening. Not because I do not care, but because I know exactly what changes I need to make. What holds me back is how people frequently rush to judgement rather than trying to understand. I am tired of being labelled as negative simply because I open up. Maybe what I’m really asking for is not answers but trust and space to grow at my own pace.

I discovered that something as simple as a blocked ear can serve as a mirror for self-awareness. I do not always need to "fix" things right away. Sometimes I just need to be patient with myself, accept my flaws, and make room for quiet healing. If others don’t understand, that’s okay—what matters is that I am beginning to understand myself.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #107

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Running against my thoughts. Jogging is often seen as a way to clear the mind, but for me, it’s more than that. It’s a quiet battle between my thoughts and my feet, between what I feel and what I know. Every step I take is not just about fitness but about pushing through the emotions that weigh me down. Recently, I realized that jogging, which was supposed to be my escape, also became a reminder of my struggles with self-image and societal expectations.

It all started when a well-meaning friend shared images of fitness influencers with sculpted bodies, captioned with words about dedication, hard work, and achieving one’s dream physique.

On the surface, these messages were meant to inspire, but for me, they became a trigger. Instead of motivation, they reminded me of what I lacked. I know I should only compare myself to my past self, not others, but it’s hard when society worships a specific kind of "ideal."

Blog - January Overview

Hi Blog and 2025,

I have been writing my blog regularly, and it has become a part of my life, or at least a safe space where I can be accepted. I could stop using other social media platforms entirely because blogs are so different; unlike social media, which shows you whoever is popular or even people you do not care about in your feed, a blog only shows those who bother to visit the space where you have put in the effort.

My blog provides me with a source of light and a focus point for being myself.

Personally, I dislike the idea of scrolling through someone's social media posts and then using the "ignored" reaction. Perhaps I am just overly attached or thinking... Most importantly, I found a space for myself and people who care and do not judge.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #106

Hi Blog,

These were monsoon days, and I was not motivated to go for a jog because the ground was wet or raining... Plus, there were long unfinished posts in December and a heavy workload in January... I hoped to regain my jogging motivation...

I tried to reflect on why I had lost motivation. I know that workload, weather, and unfinished posts all impact me, but I believe it is primarily because I have gained weight. Sigh.

Here's a collection of me in trisuits and jogging, expressing my inability to break free from the fat web... I finished this theme early last year, and now I am looking at my fat stomach... I just started to hate myself...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #105

Hi Blog,

Lately, the frequent evening rain coupled with my busy schedule has left me with little opportunity to go for a jog. Honestly, it’s been quite upsetting. I truly miss my hiking and cycling sessions—those moments of freedom and connection with the outdoors...

Looking at myself now, I can’t help but feel a bit down. I’ve put on some weight, and it’s frustrating. But amidst this wave of emotion, I remind myself that feeling this way is natural, and more importantly, that I have the power to make a change.

Even when life gets hectic, I realize how vital it is to carve out time for myself. Whether it’s a short workout, a stretch, or simply stepping outside for a breath of fresh air during a break in the rain, every small effort counts. Motivation is something we must hold close to—it’s not always easy, but it’s so valuable for our well-being...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #104

Hi Blog,

Balancing the feeling of genuinely receiving compliments while wrestling with that underlying sense of unworthiness or inferiority can be tough, and I know that it's a real challenge. Many people feel this—especially those who want to contribute positively to the world but feel they aren’t quite measuring up. That is why I feel receiving compliments is hard to accept—they seem bigger than I deserve. I don’t have the look, wealth, or abilities that many admire, and deep down, I worry about coming up short. But I’m trying to change my mindset.

Learning to Accept Compliments, One Step at a Time

Step 1: I’m starting by simply saying “thank you” without overthinking it. It's okay if I don’t see myself the way others do—small steps matter. Step 2: Blogging is a positive outlet for me; writing about these feelings helps me uncover the good others might already see. Step 3: I’m learning to agree, even if only a little, with the compliments I get. I may not be perfect, but I’m trying to grow, and maybe that’s enough for now.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #103

Hi Blog,

Looking back on my silly stupid completed trisuit theme post with a heavy heart... Yes, the accomplishment and effort should not be overlooked, but unfortunately... I fell back into the spiral again...

Perhaps it is simply a disappointment with myself... Not to the hate level, but rather blamed myself.

Everyone has accomplished so much, such as having a relationship, feeling wanted and appreciated, taking on a family role, and having a well-paying job, while I continue to sit outside my house, gazing at the small portion of the blue sky which I enjoy...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #102

Hi Blog,

For the past few years, I’ve been on a journey to stay fit while capturing moments of wearing different trisuits in the same spot. This one is my #102 trisuit post, it still amazes me how what started as a small gesture has now become a motivating factor in my life. Looking back at my #1 in March 2018, I realize that it had been six years already!

Yeah, it might seem a little strange, but each photo serves as a reminder that I'm taking care of myself - whether I'm going for a run or just keeping track of my progress.

It's my way of acknowledging my dedication and reminding myself that even the smallest actions, such as getting ready for a run in my trisuit, can have a big impact.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #101

Hi Blog,

#101 trisuit theme - just a reminder for myself that I moved on.

Apart from the conclusion of my unfruitful romantic saga, the next chapter that weighs on my mind is friendship.

I haven't identified a clear pattern yet, but what I do know is that people come and go. Especially when many initially seem sincere and eager to kindle a friendship. However, once they received the confirmation or acknowledgement, their demeanour changed and became distant, even though I made an effort to be open and approachable...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #100

Hi Blog,

Can you believe it!? It is my 100th Trisuit theme anniversary! 😂 Are you excited and amazed at how I feel?

Perhaps you might not understand... It is just about an ugly me's collective attempt to jog and plan my jogging route.

Since Feb 2015 when I decided to go for first jogging (post link) or search all my #jogging posts, my physique is still untoned since then, but I'm not waving the white flag and adding on with a #trisuitsuit theme (page link) in 2018 to motivate myself.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #99

Hi Blog,

Wow! This is the 99th entry for my trisuit theme! Can you believe that!? Looking back at my collection of trisuit themes (link) what I had achieved... I should not deny or discredit myself for the effort I had put in for years.

This elevator has been a constant companion, motivating me during workouts and work.

I found a sense of security and authenticity within the lift; similar to my blog.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #98

Hi Blog,

I'm convinced that viney spot from my trisuit theme #97 has a magnetic pull on me; I can't escape its allure!

Like this one was at different location but was gone too.

I'm wondering what type of plant this is—it doesn't quite look like other vines.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #97

Hi Blog,

Still remembered that I mentioned that I missed the vine on 15th May of May overview post? It was chopped off... There are many reasons why I missed it...

One main reason was because the vines were evenly distributed like a curtain and not much leaves litter on the ground which used to hide small critters.

I always visit this spot whenever I jogged, and now it is gone. I decided to publish this as one of my trisuit themes to memorialize this place.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #96

Hi Blog,

Once more, I'll begin my monthly blog post with a trisuit theme. Welcome to the 96th instalment of my series!

A solitary log rests beside my jogging path.

After completing my trisuit theme with this log in 2021 when I was less fatter... That log was gone now... Thank you for the log, you were being missed.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #95

Hi Blog,

Hmm, today let's see what Gemini can generate. Usually, I use ChatGPT because I love its fluidity and it feels more "human and personal" than other chats like Copilot and Gemini.

In my previous trisuit, I was using Editor aka Copilot on my keyboard. Everyone will have it. I will ask Gemini its thought over wearing a trisuit for hiking and why it's not well received by the public. I won't copy everything but to take out or see how Gemini is going to say.

Here is its response.

Trisuits are designed for breathability and quick drying, which can be good for hiking. But, they lack features hikers need: pockets for gear, durability for rough terrain, and warmth for changing weather. Plus, the tight fit might not be comfortable with a backpack. Publicly, they might look out of place for the typical hiking attire.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #94

Hi Blog,

What do you think about the idea of trisuits? Do you like them or not? Do you think they are comfortable, practical, or fashionable? Or do you think they are too revealing, too tight, or too expensive?

I have mixed feelings about them. On the one hand, I think they are cool and fun to wear. They make me feel like a superhero or a sci-fi character.

They also help me stay warm and dry when I swim, bike, or run. On the other hand, I sometimes feel self-conscious and awkward about them in the past and now (sometimes) as they show every fat curve of my body.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #93

Hi Blog,

Every month, I will make a complete Trisuit theme post. Don't keep and forget it.

Taken and completed since 2022. now this tree log was long gone.

I was feeling nostalgic as I looked at the photos of me in my trisuit. It was only a few days ago that I had snapped them at the spot where a storm knocked down the tree.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #92

Hi Blog,

These days I foresee I will have a long post for January, so perhaps it was a great idea to share my completed trisuit theme which I had completed in 2022. It is better to release it than keep it for so long. 😂

Because it had been raining and dark weather, my plants did not grow well... Now looking back at it and comparing it to the present, they looked so well at the beginning. I could recall the hype over houseplants, is real and poisoning!

Honestly, if I were loaded, I would have a bigger garden and well well-known as an influencer to share my growing experience. For now, I will learn to be contented; besides... Who am I anyway... If I can make someone close and become a stranger, what kind of influencer I can be? Just a bad influencer or hate creator...

Personal - Suits for the Theme #90

Hi Blog,

Before 2023 ends, I will end one Trisuit theme I completed in 2021. Oh my, why did I keep it until now?

I found a tree with an interesting square root frame.

I thought it would be a nice last theme for 2023; my blog is all about pictures so standing beside the root frame tree might able to get some blessing from it.