Personal - No Nut November

Hi Blog,

It's November again. I wondered whether I should try out No Nut November again. I had tried a few times, like in 2024, 2023, 2021, and 2020. I got more and more experienced, to be honest. I believe this year I will break the record because, as I have aged, especially as a single, unwanted and carrying lousy genes person like me, I would have overcome the urge.

I understand those trigger points and, having gained enough experience from the past, I should be able to manage them.

Warning! For those judgmental and conservative people (guys, gals or whatever) who might be reading at this point. Please stay away from this post because this is not a sexual piece. It’s an honest reflection on self-control, triggers, and discipline during a personal experiment. Some images might not be suitable for anyone with such sensitivity. So I would ask you to skip this.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #109

Hi Blog,

Even though it is my trisuit theme session, there is something that struck in my mind... To continue what I had started in the April Overview. Even though some or many of my friendships faded, I still think about them from time to time. Not in an obsessive way—just in those quiet moments when my mind drifts back to the people who once mattered. As an INFJ, I don’t make deep connections easily, so when I do, I hold onto them dearly. That’s why it hurt when a friend I knew and trusted suddenly grew distant. Just a shift of coldness I couldn’t quite understand. I kept wondering, did I do something wrong? Was I being too sensitive? Maybe it was nothing, or maybe it was everything. Either way, the silence between us started saying more than words ever could.

Personally, I don’t like conflict, but when someone pulled away, I didn’t chase or demand answers. Instead, I retreated, like I always do when I sense someone doesn’t want me around.

I replayed our last conversation, especially the promises, in my head, trying to piece together what went wrong. But at some point, I accepted the truth—only this stupid me easily offended others anyway. The fact is, INFJs have this habit of giving people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes at the expense of our own well-being... I guessed it wasn’t as solid as I thought.

Trip - Thomson Nature Park Again

Hi Blog,

I had intended to visit the old uncle's banyan tree but I chose to meet an old friend who was available that morning instead. He used to volunteer at the park, bringing people around, and he had previously visited Thomson Nature Park.

So why not meet him and give me a private tour of Thomson Nature Park?

Thomson Nature Park is not new to me or any of my readers (if any); however, it is a relatively new park that has a special place in my heart; and, according to my own hiking measurement score, it is a Level 2A. You can check out my Enter before it started, First Opening and Revisit in 2020 posts.

Personal - No No November

Hi Blog,

It is now November, and I am ready to take on another No Nut November challenge. Previously, I had attempted NNN several times since 2018, but I did not blog about it besides my thoughts and one of my experiences in 2020. I then challenged myself twice (2021) and (2023) but failed.

Looking back through my previous posts, I usually last more than 15 days; my maximum was 20 days. Can I make it through more than 20?

Warning to my readers: this post may appear disgusting to the general public, so if you are judgemental and cannot embrace or respect this personal space where I confronted the darkness within myself and being honest... Then please do not continue reading and stay away.

Personal - New Tent on the Island

Yoh Blog!

I can not take it any longer. If you look at my blog (Lazarus search), my last Lazarus trip was a few months ago. I really missed Lazarus Island and relaxed by doing nothing.

I was supposed to go to Lazarus with RD last Tuesday, but RD had a family matter that required his attention, and my school project had not been completed. So I could not go to the island while thinking about work, so I cancelled and went on leave today.

Today was 11.11 Singles Day, I believe... Only this unwanted shxt has to do things on its own... Watching and realising how many of my friends got engaged today... I suppose that added to my reason for wanting to visit the island and test something, as evidenced by the title of this post. Thank you, Heaven, for such beautiful weather rather than dampening.

Blog - November Overview

Hi Blog,

It is going to be the last two months of 2023. Time flies so fast, and how much or less I have done... I might make a post to reflect my 2023 in a general view. There were ups and downs... Wanted to talk about it... It always seems like everyone has a solution while making me feel like I have no plan or am not aware at all...

Fighting against my negativity is one thing that I am working towards... For every 100 negativity, I felt that I had tried to overcome it for like 70 of them. Like myself in costume... Managed to feel less inferior than before even though I will still feel inferior; which will become one of the topics I will cover in the future.

These days, I was so busy that I had many pocket time to go for a short swim... I had not been jogging at all... Missed jogging and taking my waifu out too...

Personal - Lesser Sun Lazarus Island

Hi Blog,

Yes, as you have read, let's go to the island again! Why was I taking today? First of all, because I got off for serving as a counting officer during the President Election.

Today's weather seemed alright, I guessed.

Rather than staying at home to rot, let's spare some time enjoying what I like to do...

Blog - April Overview

Hi Blog,

What a happening March, like I had been constantly swimming which seemed good but yet... I am still a fa... Nah... I should learn to celebrate this differently...

I should celebrate every small achievement that I had made like... How I appreciate little small things in life; applying the same approach towards me.

Not easy but I believe I can. It just reminded me why do I start blogging? Because besides archiving my photos, another purpose is to motivate myself with small achievements that I had made. My life happening is not as happening as compared to my peers, but this is my personal blog so I am the protagonist. Am I right, blog?

Trip - Fort Siloso & Tanjong Rimau

Hi Blog,

This one I had been waiting for an opportunity! And I don't care anymore, I decided to go for it!

Thanks Heaven for the wonderful weather today! Yesterday it was raining somehow... But the sky was God-sent.

Where was I going to? Based on the title, let me show you a bit and explain what's up with today?

Trip - Unknown Waste and Strap Company

Good Morning Blog,

Remember that I told you that my urbex journey was coming to an end because not many places in Singapore were covered?

Thanks, WS for agreeing to bring me to places which added to my urbex experience.

Today we will be exploring one place as titled. Location won't be revealed due to it is best to keep it away from public eyes and low profile.

Personal - Fighting with Inner Demons

Hi Blog,

Last year March, I gave myself a No Fap Challenge (link) for 30 days and even though I did not manage to complete it for 30 days, the overall feeling was great. You may check my initial post first to find out why I wanted to try it.

In this post, I decided to try again. Last time, I failed because supposed to be no fap, basically, no self-stimulation but I just kept edging myself. Hopefully, this time around I will not do that. Fingers cross. While taking up this challenge, I also bumped into this whole exercise called, "No Nut November" aka Nofap month; to show moral support to those people who have Erectile Dysfunction.

Let me share with you, my honest experience of what I had gone through, so please don't judge me and my imagination...

Personal - Imagination Runs Wild

Hi Blog,

When my imagination ran wild... weirdly, it will involve alien's abduction. (you can check my previous posts) I guessed it just stuck in my mind since young and the unfamiliar environment kept me feeling helpless and fearful, but dislike those torturing devices.

This picture was from X-files which stuck in my mind ever since. At that time, I had it on my VHS tape because of its setting in this scene.

But because of its controversy and living in a judgemental world, I can't share such thought with anyone so I will keep my imagination here.

Personal - Snap Snap Snap

Hi Blog,

Instead of putting this post in random month post, I ended up taking many random pictures and had to categorize those as a normal post. LOL! I guessed that it was due to some reason, the last few days at my current workplace and not many people around. So I just snapped snapped snapped for two days!

Just be proud of whatever I am.

Personal - My Trunks Collection

Hi Blog,

It has been awhile since I want to do this. I took out all my trunks from my cabinet, I realised one thing....

OMG! I HAVE 23 of them! Exclude those which I used to have in the past.

I can't believe this that I bought so many of them. I took awhile to reflect myself... I know why I bought so many of them.

You can check why I pick white as my main pick of trunk, check the link here,