Blog - October Overview

Hi Blog,

It's already October! I always have trouble pronouncing "August" as "October" because they start with the same vowel. I'm wondering if it's due to my learning disability. Most people will likely need help understanding the challenge and will do their best to teach me how to recognize and read it correctly.

But they overlooked one detail: I am fine with reading written material; it may be slow, but it is not a problem. The main issue is speech; I need to mentally spell the word to say it correctly or have it corrected by someone else. I guess dyslexia got in the way.

Oh well... I was created to tick people off as if it were a simple task, but I could not do it. When everyone is dealing with their issues with the majority of responses, I am simply stupid to be caught up in it, unaware of the difficulties and concerns I am experiencing.

1st Oct 2024 - Returning to the same spot where I was triggered by D, I reflected on why I can not take it like a man, as most people will remind me of... all I can say... Because it is my problem when I place my trust in someone... Especially when someone claimed to know me well, but when I showed myself without a shell, I realised... People do not care about the shell that I carried with a simple dismissal. To be honest, I do not blame them; I am just a weak, unworthy person. Sorry to D that I am just a disappointment...

2nd Oct 2024 - As many passersby simply judged me for my disgusting attire... I was simply too emotional and tired to feel anything... I figured most people would think I was just "ignoring" my own problems... I chose to look away. What a coward.

3rd Oct 2024 - Trisuit Theme #103
(Click here to read more)

4th Oct 2024 - Korea D1 - Seoul Shopping
(will publish after the rest to complete)

5th Oct 2024 - Korea D2 - Seoul Searching
(Drafting 22%)

6th Oct 2024 - Korea D3 - Seoul Architect
(Still waiting to be drafted)

7th Oct 2024 - Korea D4 & 5 - Seoul Chill
(Still waiting to be drafted)

11th Oct 2024 - Today I received a day's medical leave for my medical appointment (high blood pressure issue), so I met M for lunch. I hope you have a safe trip while volunteering overseas.

11th Oct 2024 - Today I made the crazy decision to remove my neck skin tags, which had been bothering me for a long time. According to what I have read online, people with skin tags may have health issues such as diabetes or high cholesterol. Looking at my untoned physique, I suppose I have had this problem since I was young... Anyway, removing it will prevent it from growing bigger, and I agreed to remove the large one on my shoulder. Painful experience... And it does not stop bleeding for hours...

12th Oct 2024 - Botanic Gardens Tyersall Gallop Extension
(Stacking up... stressed)

13th Oct 2024 - Do you notice any difference today? I trimmed my eyebrows, which are now sharper and more tidy. My mother had a package that was about to expire, so she suggested I go and try. I was hesitant to go, but I was considering how I would look with trimmed and thicker (drawn) brows. I might try Nano brows once I have some money. What do you think?

15th Oct 2024 - I finally got to swim again after more than three weeks of not swimming. The smell of the water and the feeling of the water flowing over my body are something I really missed. I invited D to join me for a short swim before he started his new job. I'm glad that he didn't feel awkward swimming with me, even though I'm not toned like a god. Thanks, D, for meeting up, and I wish you all the best in your new job.

16th Oct 2024 - Today I decided to try a different route but somehow... I still prefer my usual route because there are fewer people. Recently, some people private-messaged me to claim that I am an Exhibitionist... Despite I told them that I don't and am never comfort to be naked in front of people or nature, they just simply justified by saying that I love wearing a triangular swimming trunk and trisuit to show. Little that they know, I do it for myself to motivate myself for being stupid, low confidence and weak mind, and to enjoy doing those activities like the gods; never that I craze for others to look at me sexually. Then they just proceeded to explain, that they love it and we are all guys so it is okay to go naked with one another. I am speechless because even if I explained myself, they wouldn't understand. Thank you Mr Sun for embracing me always as he knows me well.

17th Oct 2024 - Today, there was a supermoon in Singapore, but unfortunately, I missed the perfect moment to see it. Next time, I will find a dark, quiet spot to watch the supermoon rise during the evening next month. For now, it’s just super white (no pun intended).

More to come, I will publish and update the lengthy posts sooner.

Jeff