Personal - Suits for the Theme #109

Hi Blog,

Even though it is my trisuit theme session but there is something that struck in my mind... To continue what I had started in the April Overview. Even though some or many of my friendships faded, I still think about them from time to time. Not in an obsessive way—just in those quiet moments when my mind drifts back to the people who once mattered. As an INFJ, I don’t make deep connections easily, so when I do, I hold onto them dearly. That’s why it hurt when a friend I knew and trusted suddenly grew distant. Just a shift of coldness I couldn’t quite understand. I kept wondering: Did I do something wrong? Was I being too sensitive? Maybe it was nothing, or maybe it was everything. Either way, the silence between us started saying more than words ever could.

Personally, I don’t like conflict, but when someone pulled away, I didn’t chase or demand answers. Instead, I retreated, like I always do when I sense someone doesn’t want me around.

I replayed our last conversation, especially the promises, in my head, trying to piece together what went wrong. But at some point, I accepted the truth—only this stupid me easily offended others anyway. The fact is, INFJs have this habit of giving people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes at the expense of our own well-being... I guessed it wasn’t as solid as I thought.

Even now, I don’t feel anger—just that Trust is everything to me, and once it’s broken, it’s hard to go back to how things were. I don’t hate that person (I highly doubt they or individual will ever visit and read my stupid blog), and honestly, if they ever reach out again, I’ll probably still respond. But the warmth I once had? It won’t be the same. Some friendships are meant to last, and some are just lessons in disguise. And as much as it stings, I know this experience has taught me something important: that silence isn’t just the absence of words—it’s an answer in itself.

And maybe, just maybe, it’s better for another party who doesn't need to face this shxt again..

Honestly, I cared deeply about the friendship, hence, it’s natural to feel hurt when something that mattered to me fades away without a clear reason during that moment. Once those connections break, it’s not just about losing a friend—it’s about losing the meaning of how I attached to that friendship. Instead of lashing out or holding onto resentment, I just want to make sense of what happened and honour my emotions rather than sweeping them aside.

Jeff