Blog - July Overview

Hi Blog,

As I reflected on all these thoughts, I realised something deeper. Perhaps my struggle was never truly about wanting to be handsome, taller, or more attractive. Those were simply the things I believed would bring me closer to something else — the feeling of being wanted, chosen, and desired.

Maybe we do not long for beauty itself. Maybe we long for what we think beauty can give us.

After spending much of my life single, I have often wondered if things would have been different had I looked better. Would I have received more attention? More opportunities? Would someone have looked at me differently? These thoughts still visit me from time to time. Not because I dislike who I am today, but because there remains a small part of me that wishes to know what it feels like to be desired by another person.

Yet as the years pass, I have also come to understand that attraction alone cannot carry a relationship through life. Good looks may capture attention, but they cannot guarantee kindness, loyalty, understanding, or companionship. Beauty may open a door, but it is character that decides whether someone stays. The older I grow, the more I appreciate thoughtful hearts, genuine souls, and people who make others feel safe to be themselves.

1st Jul 2026 - Thanks to SKK, who had a free movie premiere preview for a movie titled "The Invite," directed by Olivia Wilde. The movie was so well-scripted and acted; thumbs up to them. And it was smart, not easy, to keep everything in the same apartment, which saved the budget. Even though there were only four actors throughout, there was a hidden actor, which was the music, to carry the emotions. Overall, it was a great movie; however, I would not consider paying for a ticket to watch it in a theatre, but I will definitely watch it online. You can check the movie review to get some sensing.

2nd Jul 2026 - I finally had a chance to go for a jog today. I decided to try out one of my older trisuits after cutting away the inner cushion, and I feel so much better with no obstruction! Now I’m wondering if I should cut the inner cushion out of all of my other suits or just some of them. I know I have a few older, worn suits that I will definitely cut. It’s funny, I found myself asking a question and then answering it right away!

3rd Jul 2026 - OH! After a while, I bumped into Sh again. He seemed to have slimmed down, and I hope he continues his progress. After motivating him for a bit, the sun came out and brightened my evening before I headed off for a two-day camping trip.

4th Jul 2026 - Trisuit Theme #123
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6th Jul 2026 - Yippee! The Planter Market is back again! There are typical plants for sale, but this time, I'm focused on purchasing ones that will fit in my space. Unfortunately, our local Planter Market doesn’t have any bromeliads. ZN and his wife came to check out how I spent my money. Wallet damage $288! HUAT AH!

7th Jul 2026 - Today, I was invited to a class to share my hobby of keeping carnivorous plants with the students. Their eyes began to brighten with interest. Unfortunately, I didn't have an impressive specimen for them to see, but I focused on my presentation and engaged with them, trying to connect to their science textbook and their knowledge of basic plant structure. I answered their common questions and even let them feel and touch some of the plants. To be honest, I felt like a pro! I couldn't believe how naturally the flow of the presentation came to me. I felt proud of myself; I did well and left the classroom with smiles on their faces. I wish I could bring more plants with me next time.

Perhaps that is why my perspective has changed. I may still have moments when I wonder what life would have been like if I were taller, more charming, or more handsome. But I no longer believe those things are the purpose of life. Instead, I hope to become someone whose presence brings warmth, sincerity, and care to the people around me. And if one day someone chooses me for who I am, not because I fit a certain standard, but because they see the person behind the appearance, I think that would mean far more than any face I could have wished for.

A birthday reminder for myself. Thank you, blog, for walking this journey with me.

Jeff