Hi Blog,
As September begins, I’ve been reflecting on the feelings of doubt and underachievement that have been weighing on my mind—like concerns about my physical fitness, the challenges of finding time to work out, and the pressure of not having started a romantic relationship. These doubts can really get to me sometimes, pulling me into a negative space. But with some help from ChatGPT, supportive friends, and years of trying to be a better version of myself, I’ve noticed that I’ve actually made some improvements. They’re not huge or overnight changes, but they’re there, and they matter.
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| It’s important to acknowledge that I’m doing the best I can with the time I have. My schedule is packed, and I still dedicate myself to things that matter, like spending time with family, and friends, and fulfilling my duties. That’s not nothing—it’s significant. And I have to remember that fitness isn’t just about looking a certain way; it’s about feeling good and being healthy. While having a relationship is a great experience, everyone’s timeline is different. Instead of focusing on what I haven’t achieved, I’m learning to focus on being the best version of myself and doing things that make me feel fulfilled and happy—like hobbies, volunteering, or self-improvement |
What I’m learning is that progress doesn’t have to be a big deal to count. Even little steps—like accepting where I am with my fitness and staying open to the idea of love—are worth celebrating. I have to remember to give myself some credit. As I keep moving forward, I’ll try to focus more on the good stuff, be patient with myself, and embrace the slow and steady path of personal growth. Here’s to making September a month of growth, self-compassion, and positivity.
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| 2nd Sep 2024 - Giving myself a little credit here, I make an effort to eat healthily, especially at lunch while I am working. Being fat is inevitable because I have no control over dinner. If I did not eat healthily for lunch, I can only imagine... Well, after eating this way for years with no improvement, should I give up? Nope, I should keep going. Although it did not reduce my fat, I know it is the healthiest route to take because I have fat genes. |
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| 2nd Sep 2024 - All right, this is getting to be too much. Since last Thursday, I have noticed that my sore throat has gotten worse; aside from increasing my coughing and running nose, I have also noticed that my headache has gotten worse whether I cough. Perhaps it was time to see a doctor and take a few days off work. |
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| 3rd Sep 2024 - On my first day of sick leave, Heaven is aware of my tendency to go for a quick hike despite being on sick leave. However, it began to pour rain to stop me from leaving. I suppose I will spend the day resting. I still can try tomorrow! |
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| 4th Sep 2024 - Heaven must think it knows me too well because it does not want me to leave. That was a heavy one this time! I guess it is time to head back to bed and get some work done at home. |
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| 5th Sep 2024 - Despite just recovering from sickness, I am determined to go for a slow jog. I've taken a long break, but now it's time to work out. |
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| 6th Sep 2024 - There were many families at the pool today, and I started to think that wearing white while swimming or taking pictures might not be a good idea. However, I realized that I had only brought a pair of white trunks. I did my best to take a couple of photos to complete my swimming theme. It was a bit limiting, but I tried not to worry about how others judged me as long as I stayed away from the families. Walking around looking less than toned like a demi-god is an unpleasant sight for the public... |
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| 6th Sep 2024 - After our meeting today, I understood that M and I have contrasting approaches to situations and unique personalities, both of which are equally valid. However, considering her strong personality and the difficulties in understanding each other, it may not be wise to pursue a romantic relationship. To safeguard our friendship, it's best to maintain the current state of things. |
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| 8th Sep 2024 - Grateful that I was able to properly inflate my waifu's tires at last and enjoyed the enjoyable ride to my favourite peaceful location. My new photographer thinks this place is so beautiful—it is a calm, open landscape. |
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| 9th Sep 2024 - Today, I attended a course near my workplace without being prepared for a swim, and to my surprise, it ended quickly! Additionally, I was very close to Tampines Safra while it was raining without a storm, which meant fewer swimmers! I missed this place. Also, I will be wearing these trunks for the last time today because I have gained weight and they have become loose. |
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| 10th Sep 2024 - When I arrived home late today, I noticed a pregnant gecko that looked very plump! I was amazed it could still climb the wall. So adorable! |
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| 19th Sep 2024 - But I know I can not let myself sink for too long, so I gave myself one pushing reason to go for a jog: buying a new pot for my Baobab plant at the nearby nursery, which I want to turn into a bonsai. |
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| 20th Sep 2024 - Another thing I miss doing is diving into the pool. The feeling of being able to swim helped me heal. |
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| 20th Sep 2024 - Thank you for listening to all of my summarised hiccups during the trip, which allowed me to think about my content. Time to draft my blog layout! |
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| 21st Sep 2024 - I mentioned a work-related hiccup in my 'Failed Woodland Hike' post. This incident occurred because I had mistakenly disposed of our school's asset items through a trash collection company, believing they were no longer assets. Upon realising my error, I contacted the company and arranged to retrieve the items myself from Woodland Industrial Park. Initially, I feared I would have to sift through many discarded items. However, to my relief, the staff member was aware of my situation and the specific items I needed. He handed them over to me without any difficulty. In retrospect, this situation was a blessing in disguise. The outcome could have been far worse had I remained unaware of my mistake for months or even years until an audit check uncovered the discrepancy. |
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| 21st Sep 2024 - After retrieving the item, I went to my friend's house for a quick bath following my unsuccessful hike. We then travelled together to assist at an elderly activity event. My role was at the photo booth, where I was tasked with printing and framing photos for the participants. Whilst looking at photos of myself, I noticed my face appeared quite red. I wondered whether it was due to sunburn from the day's hot weather or if I was simply showing signs of ageing. Nevertheless, I found solace in the fact that the experience and joy of helping others had nourished my soul, regardless of my appearance. |
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| 22nd Sep 2024 - Speaking of nourishing my soul, I'm grateful for the opportunity to attend a vegetarian sushi course. I was invited to share some Japanese culinary skills with teenagers. After careful consideration, given the limited time available, I decided to focus on the most fundamental and crucial aspect of sushi-making: preparing sushi vinegar. Following this, I introduced them to Inari Sushi, arguably the simplest form of sushi that anyone can make. I was delighted to see that not only did the teenagers enjoy the session, but the adults present were equally enthusiastic about it! |
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| 23rd Sep 2024 - I had planned to go for a jog today, but it rained this evening. Instead, I decided to make use of my dumbbells. Regrettably, I haven't been using them regularly, nor have I been doing push-ups consistently. I recognise the need to establish a routine for these exercises. However, I find myself questioning the purpose of these efforts. At times, I struggle with feelings of being unlovable and worry that my attempts at self-improvement might only lead to further disappointment. |
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| 24th Sep 2024 - A month ago, I came across an advertisement for cycling jerseys by GoVelo. At first glance, I was impressed by the Singapore-inspired design and the unique softness of the bib shorts as portrayed by the model. I particularly appreciated how soft the shorts appeared, especially compared to typical bib shorts with their stiff padding. However, I became sceptical. The product seemed too good to be true, and I couldn't find any matching images through a Google search. Upon examining other designs featuring the same model and pose, I suspected the advertisement might be misleading. I expressed my concerns in the advertisement's comment section. The company responded that it was a pre-order, which made me wonder if they genuinely had something special. Despite my reservations, I decided to give it a try. When the product arrived, my disappointment was overwhelming. I regretted not trusting my initial instincts. While I felt deceived, I realised the company might not fully grasp my concerns, as they likely focus solely on the overall design pattern. This experience has led me to decide against purchasing any more cycling jerseys from them. I plan to sell the remaining items I have soon. |
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| 26th Sep 2024 - I was on duty today... Had a chat with D... I just went all out honest with him about that incident from the past... Man, it was painful and embarrassing to even bring it up and put it into words. I get it's not his fault, really... he's just like most people, reacting the way others would. I guess being in the minority, you either fit in or are left alone and judged, feeling like the odd one out. There were other things too... I felt so gross about myself like all this hate was mocking me for being dumb enough to think I am or can be something. Maybe I'm not cut out to be anyone's friend after all... |
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| 27th Sep 2024 - Yes, I got a chance to go for a jog. I usually go for a swim on Fridays because I finish work early and there are fewer people in the pool. However, I realized that I have more flexibility to go for a swim during my free time if I have a meeting after work, but not for jogging. So, I've decided to make Fridays the day to leave work early to go for a jog, so I can still enjoy the sunlight and be safer this way. Or maybe, I just need some time to recover from yesterday... |
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| 28th Sep 2024 - Today, Mr. Loh and his friends wanted to visit Haw Par Beach Villa. Mr. Loh was looking for an easier way to access the villa, and HD also wanted to go there. Although I had only been there once before, I felt confident I could find it again. I got a bit lost, but fortunately, everyone trusted me and we eventually found the place. Thanks to HD for helping me snap some photos. I didn't want to make this a long post, but it turned out quite lengthy. I'm glad that everyone was happy with this hike. |
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| 29th Sep 2024 - I wanted to go for a hike, but I had promised to help at the Marrow Bone Donation Booth at Suntec, where they were holding a fair for young parents. Seeing happy couples with their kids shopping for their children was heartwarming. I don't have a kid, girlfriend, or wife, but at least I can bring smiles to other people's kids. Just like other mascots - Otter, Otah, and Boost Couples! They are cute! Thank you, Suzie, for taking care of us. |
On the final day of September, I had planned to share some new posts, but unfortunately, I ended up with a migraine. Therefore, I'll conclude my September overview post. As I stated earlier in September, I will commemorate my minor accomplishments.
Jeff
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