Blog - October Overview

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Looking back at my past, I realise how much of my struggles were shaped by what I didn’t receive when I was younger. I grew up without much affirmation from my parents or adults around me, and over time, I found myself silently craving it. That gap has followed me into adulthood, where I sometimes look to others to validate my efforts or worth. It isn’t about attention or recognition; it’s about a part of me that never had the chance to feel acknowledged.

What I’ve realised is that it’s not just about affirmation itself. It’s about the kind of affirmation that reaches me.

I don’t need big, fancy words or people showering me with compliments. In fact, those things often feel cheap and empty to me. I don’t need to be in the spotlight or have the loudest applause; I never belonged on that stage. What I long for is sincerity. A smile that says, “I see what you did,” or someone describing in their own words that they understand what I’ve gone through—that means everything to me. It makes me feel that my effort and experience are not being overlooked. I don’t need more than that. A genuine response is all that's needed.

Personal - Halloween Celebration @ Woodgrove

Hi Blog,

Happy Halloween! I had been anticipating today for a while. I'd been thinking about what to dress up as these days. Some costumes appeared to be in the works, and I've been wanting to cosplay as... for quite some time now.

My Tron-Spidey costume, which I acquired in 2017. (blog link)

Let me give myself a chance to try this! Anyway, back on topic. Woodgrove's annual Halloween event takes place today! (thenewparents website) So exciting!

Personal - Swimming Theme #17

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When I was young, I loved swimming even though I was never good at it and had a mediocre body. I used to watch those confident ones glide smoothly across the pool while I swam near the edge, quietly wishing I could be like them; I just envied them. In my schooling time, swimming competitions were common, and I remember one of my classmates who stood out — not just for his skills, but for his confidence. While everyone wore black trunks, he wore a blue one. It wasn’t the colour that caught my attention, but the courage behind it.

“Confidence isn’t always loud — sometimes it’s the quiet wish to feel at ease in your own skin.”

Since then, I told myself that one day, I would wear something that gave me the same courage he had. When I looked around the shops, almost everything was black or darker blue — safe colours, but they all felt so meh to me. They lacked the life and confidence I was searching for. Then, I saw a celebrity in a magazine wearing a white trunk — he looked confident, natural, and free. (you may read more here) White was my favourite colour too, and it felt like it represented something I longed for: purity and self-belief. I searched everywhere for one, and when I finally found it after months and nearly years of looking, I felt like I had achieved something small but deeply personal.

Hiking - Rocks Garden

Good Morning Blog,

Long weekend finally, but I have an important thing to prepare for next weekend. However, I was invited to explore a secret place in Singapore. Let me show you the hidden side of Singapore.

Hmm... Heavy clouds spotted... Hope it won't rain...

I was on the journey to a secret spot in Singapore where nature's boulders rest undisturbed. Check them out with me today!

Product - Replacement Insomniac Spiderman Suit

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It took a while to decide whether I should even get myself a new Spider-Man suit. You might ask me why I would even consider getting a new one when I hadn't had a chance to use it. You are right. Honestly, I always wish to don the Spider-Man suit, but... my physique isn't the type of Spider-Man's... In fact, even in my Captain America costume...

But mainly because I cannot see without my glasses... Eventually, I will still get one, and I will explain.

Long story short, I love the design of this Spider-Man suit, and I am trying to resolve my disappointment with my previous purchases. Let me recap with you what I had purchased previously.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #115

​Hi Blog,

I used to feel conflicted about my clothing choices. Whenever I wore something more fitted or in white, people would make comments — saying it looked “too much,” or that such styles were linked with a certain group. I wasn’t wearing them for that reason at all; I simply wanted to look decent and feel confident in my own skin. 

It was never really about clothes. It was about being seen and judged.

The truth is, I often compared myself with those who were more toned or “better looking.” They could wear tight, bold, or even daring clothes, and others would praise their confidence. But when I did the same, it felt like I was labelled, misunderstood, or even mocked. That left me asking myself if I should just give up my preferences and stick to what was “safe”.

Hiking - Veranda Banyan Revisit

TGIF Blog,

Something random and impromptu that I did today: I had a blood test appointment in the morning, and since it was a school holiday, I had taken last year's leave to clear. Hence, I decided to clear my leave.

Now was the headache part; where should I cover?

Based on the title, I suppose you know where I'm heading. In fact, there are so many places in my mind to visit, so why did I pick that place? I will explain along the way. You can read my previous exploration of this place (blog link), if you missed it.