Blog - May Overview

Hi Blog,

Everyone knows I carry my own emotional baggage, which has made me feel unattractive in the dating scene and caused me to miss many opportunities. But what people may not realise is that my lack of confidence didn’t stem from the start—it developed over time from understanding certain realities... Most women have preferences for traits they seek in a potential partner, and once they make their choice, they rarely reconsider someone they already know well. Even those claiming character matters more than looks often don't invest time choosing someone like me. It’s not just about confidence; it’s about acknowledging the lower likelihood of being selected and mentally preparing myself to accept that fact early on.

(ChatGPT messed up my eyes; I guess that's how I looked! 😂) I once thought that accepting this reality would help me feel less hurt, that if I numbed myself to it, I could be happier. But emotions don’t work that way. The more I tried to force acceptance, the more I realised that deep down, I still felt the weight of it. Over time, though, I’ve come to understand that confidence isn’t just about external validation—it’s about how I see and value myself. Whether or not others choose me, I am still learning to love myself in a way that isn’t selfish but affirming.

Some people say it’s all in my head, that I’m overthinking, or that I’ve set myself up for failure by assuming women have certain expectations. But I can’t ignore the reality that even men with visible flaws or bad habits are still considered, while I remain overlooked. However, rather than dwelling on this, I’ve shifted my focus to something more meaningful: what kind of person I want to be. That is the validation I am learning to seal for myself, not one given by others, but one I build from within. May I be strong 💪🏼

Personal - Suits for the Theme #110

Hi Blog,

Recently, I’ve been reflecting on some emotional triggers that still affect me. One particular moment stood out during an overseas trip with my aunt and a friend. At the airport, as the tray system for luggage was jammed with long queues, I tried to help by passing used trays back to keep things moving. But when I moved my friend’s bag with good intention, I was met with the harsh comment, “Don’t act smart here.” That line, though short, stayed with me.

It wasn’t just the words—it was what they represented. That same phrase has echoed through my life, especially when I was younger. Whether I was moving snails to safety or quietly closing a lid that seemed out of place, my small acts were often dismissed as unnecessary or even silly. Each time, I wasn’t seen for the thought or kindness behind my action—I was judged from the surface, as if trying to do something good was something wrong.

What truly hurts is not being asked why I did what I did, not being given space to explain myself. I always try to understand others before I comment, hoping to see their perspective. Yet I rarely feel that same courtesy returned to me. Deep down, I just want to be understood—not praised, not rewarded—just understood with an open heart.

Trip - Australia D6 - Returning Reflection

Hi Blog,

Finally, my last post was about my first trip to Melbourne. However, most people thought writing a blog, especially what I was doing, was time-consuming and pointless. Most people will simply save the photos to their phone or somewhere else, where they will be kept and possibly forgotten.

It felt like a form of reflection, recalling, learning, and memory to me. Like, right now, first thing in the morning, I started packing.

While packing, I was reflecting on the entire process and feeling... If there is someone who can care for my plants, I will have to stay longer... Alright, let’s get back to the topic.

Trip - Australia D5 - Beach & Phillip Island

Hi Blog,

After the State Coal Mine, our next plan for the day was to visit Phillip Island and meet some adorable pet penguins. It was highly recommended by my friends.

WC told me there was a road that I was looking for, so I quickly snapped it with my phone, as I couldn't spare any time to hesitate. It turned out to be good enough, if not the best!

Along the way, I asked WC to stop by one of the beaches on Phillip Island, and he agreed! Let's go!

Trip - Australia D5 - State Coal Mine

Hi Blog,

Today marked the fifth day of our trip to Melbourne. Staying at someone's house puts me at ease.

Sitting on a carpet at home is a unique experience, but I understand it requires a lot of upkeep.

Where will we go today? We tried to keep it simple with three locations, starting with the farthest (not as far as the Twelve Apostles), and as the title suggests, WC had never heard of it.

Trip - Australia D4 - Go Suburbs

Good Morning Blog,

Fourth day in Melbourne, and there are still so many things and places I have not seen... Anyway, I intended to spend the first three with my friend Sf and the last three with my Australian friend WC. Fortunately, Sf and WC do not mind making new friends, so Sf will not be alone in the city while I am away with WC.

WC will be coming to our hotel to pick us up.

I was wondering what and where we would be going next. The fourth day was spent visiting the suburbs where WC lived to gain a general understanding of how the locals live.

Trip - Australia D3 - Geelong Waterfront

Alright Blog,

Where were we? Oh, yeah. So, after checking out Sovereign Hill, we headed to our next stop.

It was a different kind of road, and I was admiring how long and twisted it was. I like the road that leads up to the sky because it creates a beautiful image that is both unreachable and reachable.

Will anything be interesting to look out for at the next location? Should have. I will not make many comments and will let my photos speak for themselves.

Trip - Australia D3 - Sovereign Hill

Good Morning Blog,

Let us continue with our third day in Australia. Where are we headed today? You knew from the title.

It would be another long car ride, but still shorter than the Great Ocean Road on Day 2.

You may be thinking that Sovereign Hill is just a place; what makes it special? We were going to the Sovereign Hill Gold Mine Tour, which a few people had recommended to me, but Sf suggested it, and it would be a great place to visit.

Trip - Australia D2 - Tower Hill Wildlife Reserve

Yoh Blog,

Let us continue from where we left off in the previous post: the Great Ocean Road. Sf recognised that I enjoy seeing the natural side of a new location, so he suggested we visit Tower Hill Wildlife Reserve, which offers free admission! Yippee!

Another long ride, but not far from the Great Ocean Road.

What's Tower Hill Wildlife Reserve? In short, Tower Hill is home to some of Australia's native wildlife, including emus, kangaroos, and koalas, which live in a large dormant volcano. Visitors can explore the area's wetlands, craters, and bush. My imagination began to run wild, as if there would be a large number of animals roaming around like on a safari. Let's see if we can find any!

Trip - Australia D2 - Great Ocean Way

Good morning Blog,

Today we went on a road trip to the Great Ocean Road! Anyone who knows I am going to Melbourne has highly recommended it.

You may be wondering if my title is incorrectly named. It should be 'Road' rather than 'Way', correct? There is a reason, which I will explain last.

Why did I wake up so early, like 6:30 a.m.? Aside from the need to get the vehicle out early due to the long distance, there was another reason...

Trip - Australia D1 - Melbourne City

Hi Blog,

It is finally here: time to travel! Many people have asked me if I am wealthy or something for travelling so frequently over the years, and I must admit that there are two primary reasons for this trip. I do not expect anyone to believe my words.

First, we had promised my Australian friend, WC, that we would visit him sooner than last year. He told us that this year would be a good time to visit him because he had just moved into a new house that could accommodate us. However, I did not see anyone making any plans to make it happen, so I decided to fulfil the promise myself.

Second, I enjoy travelling, exploring, and learning new things outside of my normal routine. When I was younger or first started working, I could not afford to travel because I did not earn enough to cover everything, including flight tickets and accommodations, let alone spending; it was out of reach. In recent years, I have been able to save enough money to allow myself to travel.