Blog - March Overview

Hi Blog,

Have you ever been conscious while dreaming? Like being fully aware of your dream, knowing what you are saying and how you are reacting, yet unable to control what happens within it.

I experience this quite often. Sometimes, after waking up, I can still vividly remember what took place in my dream.

I’ve come to realize that this mirrors real life—just as dreams unfold on their own, so do the events in our daily lives. We can’t control what happens around us, but we can choose how we respond, what we learn, and how we grow from these experiences.

A great teacher once shared that when we consistently practice self-awareness—through reflection, repentance, and attentively observing the world around us, including people, events, and nature—we can cultivate mindfulness throughout the day. Lately, I’ve been making a conscious effort to “know” my thoughts, adjust how I react, and learn from every experience. I’ll continue observing and refining this awareness as time goes by.

Product - Biollante Toy Figure

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This might seem random, but today felt like a childhood dream that came true. I’m not sure if you’re familiar with the Japanese Godzilla movie series, but when I was young, I was fascinated by Ultraman and all sorts of monsters—especially those with unique, non-human forms that stood on two legs. Each monster had its own distinct features, just like creatures in nature. Maybe that’s why I was drawn to Pokémon too, though I avoided getting into it too much, knowing I wouldn’t be able to stop once I started.

So, what’s the big deal today? Well, I’m going to discuss one of the monsters I adore - Biollante.

In many Godzilla films, the monsters typically receive official model figures. However, one of my all-time favourites, Biollante, has never had an official figure released, or rather, I can't say it doesn't have one, just that I don't have a good quality version figuring.

Hiking - Adam or Sime Abandon House

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One of my friends showed me a picture of an abandoned building that he thought I might be interested in. After enquiring further, he only mentioned the road and ended there; I have been there before, so it is time to return.

It seemed like a good weather today!

It has been a while since I visited an abandoned place. I have missed the thrill of exploration, particularly during the COVID years.

Personal - Suits for the Theme #108

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Continue from the swimming post (here). After realizing that I keep looking at certain people, I start questioning myself. Why do I do this? What does it mean? Am I weird? The more I think about it, the more confused I feel. People like to put labels on everything, and I don’t want to be misunderstood.

But deep down, I know it’s not because I like them in that way. It’s because I wish I could be like them.

I envy the confidence, the admiration, the kind of attention they get without even trying. It reminds me of what I never had. No matter how much I work on myself, I will never have that kind of youth or presence. That reality stings. Seeing them brings back feelings I thought I had let go of, but they are still there, buried inside me. It’s not about wanting them. It’s about wanting what they represent, what I never got to experience.

Personal - Swimming Theme #13

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Lately, I’ve noticed something about myself. Whenever I see a group of young guys with certain traits—fit bodies, full hair, tall frames, sharp-looking school uniforms—I can’t help but stare for a moment. Not in a creepy way, but in this quiet, almost painful way, like I’m looking at something that reminds me of what I never had. I feel envious, maybe even a little bitter...

Why do they get to have it all? Why couldn’t I?

I think back to my younger days when these kinds of people always got attention, praise, and admiration. They were effortlessly popular, loved, and respected. Meanwhile, I felt invisible, like I would never measure up no matter what I did. And now, even though I’ve grown and understand life better, that feeling still lingers. It’s frustrating because I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others, but sometimes, it just happens...