Blog - April Overview

Hi Blog,

Time passes, but some feelings linger. Even though life moves forward, my mind occasionally drifts back to a friendship that left me feeling both betrayed and disappointed. It wasn’t a heated argument, nor was it a dramatic fallout—just a moment, a shift, a distance that grew between us. Looking back, I ask myself: was I too sensitive, or did I simply expect too much? Maybe it was a small matter, but sometimes, the smallest moments reveal the biggest truths.

It all began with a trip, where things seemed fine until they weren’t. A conversation about life choices—where to live, what freedom means—led to a wall of silence I never saw coming. I thought this friend understood me, yet his coldness after that session felt like a quiet storm.

After we returned from the trip and he departed with a cold wave without a word... Months passed without a word, and when he finally reached out, I found myself unable to respond with the warmth I once had. I didn’t want to be angry, but I couldn’t ignore the weight of the ghosting during and after either. Perhaps time will mend what was lost, or maybe it has already shown what was never truly there. I don’t want to hold grudges, but I do hold onto lessons. And if this experience has taught me anything, it’s that silence speaks louder than words—both his and mine.

1st Apr 2025 - I kicked off April with a short swim, and it felt surprisingly refreshing. Since I forgot my goggles, I simply closed my eyes and focused on the rhythm of my freestyle strokes. It was a small but satisfying celebration for myself.

2nd Apr 2025 - This evening, my friends invited me to dinner after hearing about something that happened during a meeting I attended. Long story short, I was involved in a planning team for a May event. Since I couldn’t attend the actual class, I prepared a detailed agenda and brainstorming ideas for the team. During the meeting, I did my best to explain our activity's entire concept and flow. I also considered various factors, such as target audiences, facilitators' abilities, and detailed content, but most of them struggled to understand what I was trying to convey. When I asked for their suggestions, no one had any; yet somehow, some members felt I was talking too much, especially since I won't be attending the actual class. Honestly, I don't feel positive about this, but I am glad that my friends understand my intention, which is to contribute and help out the team even if I am not attending.

3rd Apr 2025 - Today's swim was brief, and I only managed to swim two laps before the lighting warning signal started. Oh well, at least I did something; even if I swam more than usual, it would not help to add abs or muscle to this untoned physique.

3rd Apr 2025 - M requested dinner before leaving for her next business trip. It was great to have someone see my side of the story, as I had been misunderstood at first. Original Greens offers unique vegetarian cuisine. Thank you for hearing me out today.

4th Apr 2025 - Seeing everyone transform their photos into Studio Ghibli style using ChatGPT gave me a bit of FOMO, so I decided to try it out with a trisuit picture. The results turned out great, to be honest; what amazing work from AI! Well, in these pictures, I look average and a bit meh, but I love all of them. Hahaha! I asked Chat to try a different filter, and it gave me a Superhero Comic filter, and I think I understand why everyone tried the Ghibli style. So, which one do you like? I love them all....

5th Apr 2025 - Trisuit Theme #109
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6th Apr 2025 - I initially planned to explore an abandoned place today, but somehow, I didn’t feel right about going. Instead, I brought my waifu out and found a quiet spot to enjoy a peaceful reading session. It’s been a while since I had this kind of calm, relaxed moment—and I truly missed it.

More to come.

Jeff

Personal - Suits for the Theme #109

Hi Blog,

Even though it is my trisuit theme session but there is something that struck in my mind... To continue what I had started in the April Overview. Even though some or many of my friendships faded, I still think about them from time to time. Not in an obsessive way—just in those quiet moments when my mind drifts back to the people who once mattered. As an INFJ, I don’t make deep connections easily, so when I do, I hold onto them dearly. That’s why it hurt when a friend I knew and trusted suddenly grew distant. Just a shift of coldness I couldn’t quite understand. I kept wondering: Did I do something wrong? Was I being too sensitive? Maybe it was nothing, or maybe it was everything. Either way, the silence between us started saying more than words ever could.

Personally, I don’t like conflict, but when someone pulled away, I didn’t chase or demand answers. Instead, I retreated, like I always do when I sense someone doesn’t want me around.

I replayed our last conversation, especially the promises, in my head, trying to piece together what went wrong. But at some point, I accepted the truth—only this stupid me easily offended others anyway. The fact is, INFJs have this habit of giving people the benefit of the doubt, sometimes at the expense of our own well-being... I guessed it wasn’t as solid as I thought.

Blog - March Overview

Hi Blog,

Have you ever been conscious while dreaming? Like being fully aware of your dream, knowing what you are saying and how you are reacting, yet unable to control what happens within it.

I experience this quite often. Sometimes, after waking up, I can still vividly remember what took place in my dream.

I’ve come to realize that this mirrors real life—just as dreams unfold on their own, so do the events in our daily lives. We can’t control what happens around us, but we can choose how we respond, what we learn, and how we grow from these experiences.

A great teacher once shared that when we consistently practice self-awareness—through reflection, repentance, and attentively observing the world around us, including people, events, and nature—we can cultivate mindfulness throughout the day. Lately, I’ve been making a conscious effort to “know” my thoughts, adjust how I react, and learn from every experience. I’ll continue observing and refining this awareness as time goes by.

Product - Biollante Toy Figure

Hi Blog,

This might seem random, but today felt like a childhood dream that came true. I’m not sure if you’re familiar with the Japanese Godzilla movie series, but when I was young, I was fascinated by Ultraman and all sorts of monsters—especially those with unique, non-human forms that stood on two legs. Each monster had its own distinct features, just like creatures in nature. Maybe that’s why I was drawn to Pokémon too, though I avoided getting into it too much, knowing I wouldn’t be able to stop once I started.

So, what’s the big deal today? Well, I’m going to discuss one of the monsters I adore - Biollante.

In many Godzilla films, the monsters typically receive official model figures. However, one of my all-time favourites, Biollante, has never had an official figure released, or rather, I can't say it doesn't have one, just that I don't have a good quality version figuring.

Hiking - Adam or Sime Abandon House

Hi Blog,

One of my friends showed me a picture of an abandoned building that he thought I might be interested in. After enquiring further, he only mentioned the road and ended there; I have been there before, so it is time to return.

It seemed like a good weather today!

It has been a while since I visited an abandoned place. I have missed the thrill of exploration, particularly during the COVID years.